Master of your Dreams

Is there a time when life is not hard?
A time when all things come together for good?
Where must I go to have peace? a day for joy?
Not a day for
Is there such a place?
 We fight for things that have not meaning,
we wait for things that never come.
There is nothing worth the honor of ones heart, so let it go.
Faint not for hope.
Let not your dreams die for someone else.
stand tall for that deep conviction you have.
Let non take your soul.our ideas.

Is there nothing for the lowly to become?
Can a man not change his destiny?
Must he stay in the mire of his birth?
Lacking nothing but the willingness to reach for his goals!
Take nothing for granted, nothing is free.
You must put something of yourself into it to become more.
Wait for the moment!
Find your freedom in the passions of your ideas.
You, and you alone are the master of your dreams.
Make them come true.
It is up to you!

all that we share

my eyes find you,
always finding you.
My heart beats for you,
only, always for you.
Touching your skin,
feeling the warmth of your breath on my neck.
how long do we play at this game?
Soulful are our trists.
core deep,
wonder falling from your lips.
I need you,
want and desire all that you are.
a filling passion from longings we share.

Ink deep

          pages of words,

ink........
             I have spilled from a wound so deep.

           a wicked spell,
 I could not control,
                       Woven from a language I do not know.

Cast upon the vellum.
 i fear nothing is real.

                            That I have words to speak is My miraculous survival!
                     
I am the one ,
                       carved from the stone.
Cold and shapeless for so long.

chisel, hammer and skilled hands.
              Cracks, gashes one after the next
                                        .........................shape taking, molding, taking.

          Words spilling from flesh and bone.
chips and dust falling away to become.
           Form flowing from the stone,
Words with vision, pain, anguished desires with not a hope.

                     Pages overflowing
                               Passions worth knowing............

 pages of words,

ink........
             I have spilled from a wound so deep.

Liar....

Liar!

I DID NOT KNOW!!!!

                 You took the truth from me!!!!

Shit on my trust!           My sin is my love for you....

Poured out my loyalty for dishonor.

      You allowed me to betray myself.

Giving false hope.

Knowing I would trust your every word.


                                       This is your goal...
                              Slaughter of my soul.

The disgrace of myself. how could you do this?

why would you hurt me so....

of slate with honeydew

Breaking the shadows,
Running to arms so kind,
That touch,
                of slate with honeydew.
Kisses without words.
Hands gripping, pulling as two fold and change into one.
Such depth in this passion.
Rivers of desire flowing over on his hands,
On my skin he paints his dreams.
I have become!

          It is there in such a tangle, find we shelter from all storms.
Playful as children when summer is warm.
Banished are all shames,
for not one may stand,
when he is holding me and I am in his hands.

EMPTY whispers on my lips..........

HEAR me.......


              Crying OUT!
Lingering in the last dream of you.....................

                               EMPTY whispers on my lips..........

  NOTHINGNESS feeding what once was me WHOLE!

Shame not my soul from your wickedness of the past........

       I do not belong, I must flea this unforgiving voice.........................
                      Shaken to life, tight is the grip you have me in.
 Shuttering to seek freedom from the oppressive silent screams.
                       
SHAMEFUL words cross my burning lips,
 .........................the vile caustic wisdom from the dark be damned.
                     
                   Soul shattering, SOUL shattering, SHATTERING MY SOUL.
                                                                               To walk in life, in fields of plenty.

Running from the NOTHINGNESS that was we two.
                     Filling new desires, Breathing charm and mercy.

NEVER to be in your naked arms again.

Up from the pantheon

Up from the pantheon,
Wickedly justified is this touch.
Silent echos falling from stitched lips,
Nothingness calling my name.
Fated to the winds as they might please.
Such a long dismemberment is this at your hand.
Breath coils into light, 
from winters vacant eyes.
Shelter comes to the faithless one and yet I am denied.
Latent are the dreams where as a youth I once did play,
Velum covers all that once was.
Yet I am still so real.
Am I not?
Deep within this walking dream, come you to me.
Wake me from this dark slumber.
for this cavern of solitude.
This chasm shall not be my grave, 
I fall awake in this new dawn of your touch. 
Falling into my awakening.

All that is Lost

We are friends so we say,

talking laughing shared tears each day.

For so long it was only you and I,

not there is someone else that has your eye,

Without hello and good-bye, 

She walks in for another try,

was she not the one that fell aprat,

trashed your soul and broke your heart?

Was she not the one that had to be drunk and shameful 

when you were yet unknown to me?

I will not fight for your affection 

Nor will I make a cause,

For in this wickedness of decention 

my heart is all that is lost.

Glowing Honey Sun

Two wheels on a long road,

You and I with no place to go,

Miles slip by.

Glowing honey sun,

Long grass under our feet,

cool and sweet,

softly, playfully,

one old basket,

two young souls,

Glowing honey sun,

Dreams shared,

Your hands in my hair,

friendship bound in a kiss,

Child like laughter all around,

Passion and wonder lay we down.

Glowing honey sun,

warm  summer sky,

making memories with you,

Takes me worlds away,

Safely wrapped in your arms,

Becoming one flashing spark,

you and I,

Making memories to last a lifetime,

Glowing honey sun,

there in your arms,

safe and loved,

Kisses rain down on a warm summer breeze,

this is you and I making memories.

Right about Easter

It was a cool day,

back about Easter time.

I got your call,

In no time flat there you were,

in the drive way,

Hand out stretched,

Smile so dear,

I took your hand and the world disappeared.

We talk for a moment,

nothing much to say,

something about blue lamps and that I live a world away.

Yet there in my driveway,

A friendship begain,

a tiny flower breaking ground,

Slowly cultivated over time,

Sharing hellos and TGIF's.

A "hey what ya doing",

A few noted online.

And there you were sitting with me,

a new page to be written in our history.

My Darling I missed you

I walking out to the mailbox,

just once more,

nothing like waiting on something that will never come..... not to you.

So many nights laying in  darkness,

wishing for more than what it is.

Thinking there under the stars all about you.

Wandering each day,

Looking for more than I know on my own.

I can see your smile in my wildest of dreams,

I can hear your voice when I see people in love,

The feel of your hand in mine.

Nothing more than heaven will do.

Nothing but heaven will do,

Not one more day without you.

Walking to the mailbox,

this one last time,

a wish on my heart and a dream in my mind,

I could not wait,

not one more day,

there in the box your words for me today,

Honey I miss you,

when you are so far away,

Each night a nightmare  as well as the days.

I could not want more than to be with you today,

Turn around my love

Because I am looking your way....

And I love you,

No more sleepless night,

I need you, For your love to take flight,

You are my reason, you are my song,

And in your arms for always is where I belong.

 Turning around I can see your face,

arms wide open

lovers embrace,

My darling I missed you

I want you to stay forever and always to the end of our days,

How I need you,

My love.

Into My Life

Looking at your face,

You my little one,

Such a blessing, you my sweet gift,

Grace and mercy fallen on me.

I held you till you walked on your own,

Running after you so save you from yourself.

From the rocks of life,

for the monsters of the world.

Yet it was never me saving you.... More you saving me.

 My saving grace, the day you came to me.

Joyful pain as you came into this world.

Into my life,

your reached my heart,

tiny hands,

you such an old soul,

the path of our destiny yet to be told.

Each day you become more than I could be,

You are a wind, a sail on the highest sea,

The rain to the garden,

A fied for the dying,

The words of every love song,

My tears when I am crying,

You are more than I could have dreamed of,

more than any wish I have made,

you are the passion in my heart and the blessing on every day.

Without a word to say

saying good-bye was hard to do,

The crashing of my soul so loud,

Letting you walk away,

never asking you to stay

It was painful it might have been brave,

I move on.

Just a moment away for forever,

You cannoy keep me on a teather,

I have learned,

I have changed,

you are still more or less the same.

How sad for you,

what a shame,

That I have blossomed and yet you remain unchanged.

A false foundation was to blame,

Something build on nothing and it was nothing we gained.

I cannot run to you,

I would not dare,

I walk in the new day with so much to share,

You thought I was beaten,

you thought I would stay down,

I stood up once again and my left hook took you down.

I am more than you wanted,

You were just afraid,

I move on now without a word to say.

Written for you to sing

raw naked Ideas swimming in a gelled vision of yesterday.

 How such dreams shall fade as in your arms I find the safety of midnight's child.

It is here in the mist of desire I linger,Nothing comes of want,

For without passion for those arms that shelter the heart is alone with it's self.

Your have my heart,Feel it there in your chest.

Pounding each moment....Telling you there am I.

You are not so far,

There is never enough miles to keep twin souls from each other.

We do not fade,only the washing of yesterday.

Drowning without you.Climbing down into the wake to find you...

The child cry's out for it's home,

shelter from wicked storms.

Two bodies one soul.

 walking to one drummer,

one fluid beating,

One dancer creating new music as she spins.

 Filling velvet wishes with you.

New songs written for us to sing. 

Wall about the heart

sun lemon bright,
my hands held so tight,
without a word I die,
He walked away without good-bye,
Lay still young heart,
Please weepeth not,
I will build for thee a wall.
A wall of stone and mortar thick Deep and tall.
Within the wall you will be safe from harm that blisters bare.
From words and acts made to deplete,
A shelter for your soul to care.
for behind this wall you will not be a toy to be broken at a whim,
nor a beating post.
You shall be the Queen of the Saving wall and rule it there with grace.
Your face will find the smile fade,
the light from your eyes will dim.
Yet within the wall my Darling one you will be safe from him. 

All good things must come to an end

We made plans,
We shared hopes and dreams,
You let me love you ,
I flew with wings,
We laughed and cried,
We loved so deep,
yet nothing of me would you keep,
I was hidden from everyone,
Were you so ashamed of me?
I was your face as you said to me,
you want no one in your life; Not even me.
I ended the call,
I had to go,
My tears running free you could not know,
Abandon and heart broken at such great loss,
like so much rubbish i have been tossed,
My soul weeps,
My spirit is fallen,
I was your princess,
That is what you had said; I am your heart beat and the hope that you had.
So once again I am left with a lie,
Laying here waiting for my loving heart to say good bye,
It should have been clear;
Why did I not see,
I was only a toy in your wicked fantasy?

Memories with you

 on Friday, 6 January 2012 at 00:14 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            shared moments with you, 

the lingering of your kiss,

the way you feel under my skin,

Oh my god it's the way you taste,

                                                             Filling me with wine from the heavens,

silver wishes wrap me in the midnight blue,                                                     the tender wants of this heart beat for only you.

Lay within my soul forever,                           and know it's not enough,

the ringing out of our laughing hearts,

Blazing smiles dipped in honey,                                Deeply covered in this shelter are we,

with me always so much of your love,

                                                                                                                              woven into my very threads there is you,                                                     Dance with me till the last star falls from the night,

                                                             

till the world is lost to it's self.

ode to Spring

 on Sunday, 22 April 2012 

Pretty tiny flowers,

painted laughing breeze.

Sugar melted sunshine,

winters cold kiss locked in deep freeze.

Songs with joy floating,

new hopes and passions in bloom,'

busy bumbles kissing each dozzing head to wake.

Lovers refreshing desires sparks with springs newly found flame.

every sidewalk crack a garden rare,

every cloud a page in an "I SPY" book,

So come dear Sping with all your might, 

cast away winters cold sad plight,

bathe us in sweet warm light that we may grow again.

Pretty 

tiny

flowers,

Songs without end,

bubbling laughter

hearts of such cheer that sun and Spring now are here.

tickling kindness

tickling thoughts abounding
walking
waking
wishing
tasting trying touching you
feeling
fallen
found
kissing kindness tender too
playful
passions
pulse
hunger heavy for you
needy
naughty
nakedness

Soul Touching

golden rays kissing flesh,
dancing lights upon his face,
lush blades under foot,
fantasy come true,
tasting him,
on this spring day,
my joy.
my want.
my muse.

pulling him down to the soft sweet ground,
feeling his desires growing for me,
soul touching soul,
want finding it's fill,
waves of emotion pouring over we two.

Shame Does Not Win

A slap to the face,

how the sting of disgrace,

Can find you.

In the shade of the night,

in flames shining bright,

nothing can there be to hide you!

Not fame.

Nor death,

Nor Hangman's jest,

for all you try is for not.

in vain and worry,

as like a rodent you scurry to become what you are not.

A slap to the face,

laughing disgrace,

yet human you are,

thru and thru.

SO

Stand once again,

try my dear friend, to find the strength to carry on.

For in your shame you are made wise,

learn from the sinners song.

the slap is a correction,

the laughter a joke,

the Hangman is only to discipline folk.

 Stand yet again,

your shame does not win,

for this I do know,

We are not the sum of the wrong we have done,

we are the measure of our heart.

Yes you may stand, come take my hand for we are 

stronger as one,

no man is a nation,

we need not be an island alone.

Learn from your family,

love and Grace lead you home. 

Within The Winter

Within the winter I hear the call. Sweet longing whispered as softly snow doth fall. There in a voice of sheer desire, quiet passions cooling fire, for in our dream this winter make, and from the fall our love we make.

Upon The Horizon

When I was looking,
 I saw nothing there,
Not a shimmer of hope,
Not the line of disrepair.
My eye soundly focused.
With deep conviction did I find my gaze.
emblazoned upon the horizon.
And still I could see nothing.

Your smile missing from my day.
Your eye calling out my name,
I was seeking for you yet all was not the same!
You are gone and I have not your name.


When I was looking,
Nothing could I see,
not the spark of our love nor what passion used to be.
The spark of our love has faded from view,
My sound focus covered in a waterfall of tears.
How is a love this real, bonded true.
How could my desire, adoration and joy be gone with you?


As I see the horizon line this day,
with seeking love I wait and pray,
To one day find you come this way,
into my arms evermore to stay.

a day or four in the life!

buster and I.

Pretty eyes

My Heidi and I

Heidi and I

trying on a hat I LOVED at Target

Love this Jacket

lets make a "Ewww thats yucky face!"

"You are Here"

DO not smile!

Missing my heart

thinking of Him

oh how He makes me silly!

You think I want more ??

C'mere Lover!

I Love How you help me find JOY!

Being silly is fun!

I love that!! Do it AGAIN!

Yes! That is wonderful.

Let's always be silly 

Cheese face!

More Cheese face!

I wish you could stay for always...

I ache when you are so far from my heart.

Spot on!

Sunshine coming  in

wishing you were here

silly me

lost in a thought of you....

You make me Shine!

saying Goodbyes 

My silly niece and I

the days are so long without you.

I found your shirt.... It smells of you.

Bright eyes!

At Laura's

can you see me??

Abby and Auntie

at Laura's

Oh that nasty silver hair!! Ugh!

Alyssa and Auntie!

silly me!

you are my heart! How I need you to live.

With love and sealed with a kiss.

ready for the day! I really do not like Pink!

much better! 

Super Bowl Sunday!

Super Bowl Sunday2012!

my wild curls! man that is crazy hair!

wild child!

Love my "O"

at home

can you see the stars in my eyes???

too cold for my DAILY!!! 

home from my DAILY and it was a great hike!